I’ve had my ED since I was a child, so when I was 12-13 and I was really skinny yet everyone else’s bodies around me started to grow womanly it scared the shit out of me. The fact that I still have a body of a child (sexual) so I binge ate till my body looked womanly. When my body looked womanly it scared the shit out of me (sexual) so I restricted back down to a weight that made me look like a child…which scared me again (sexual) so I binged all the way back up, starved all the way back down, and the cycle repeats itself…I realized no matter what my body will always be sexual (child or woman’s) and that scares the shit out of me
